Fuck

Life keeps getting better and better! I am so fucked right now financially. I thought I had more money than I actually do in my checking account. I'm short $23 for rent. If I had known I was short I would of saved the extra ten bucks I got from Evan (for delivering weed) for rent that is due on the 1st. Now if Robert can't sell the four Xanax I have, to his co-worker than I'm shit out of luck paying Robert rent. Fuck my life... I really hope this guy buys them from me or else all Hell is going to break loose and Robert is going to kick me out and serve my head on a plate. I really wish I hadn't let issues with my car go and I hadn't gone and spent money I can't afford right now on sushi with Halley a week ago. That was so fucking retarded of me. I am so sick to death of being bored, broke and of no use to myself or anyone else. No wonder no one wants to date me. I'm broke, I'm jobless and I'm moody like 24/7 nowadays. I'm real catch! I have no plans, no future, no goals. I have nothing, just my possessions I've accumulated and a cat that nobody likes. I totally understand now, I would run the other way if I met myself too just like every guy that has encountered me last year and this year as well. I really hope I can make ends meet or else I'm going to be homeless come next month... :'(

"I just don't know what to do with myself."

I don't know what's going on with me again. I just don't feel like having any human interaction right now. All I seem to want to do nowadays is just draw, smoke pot, Facebook chat with Skosh, watch DVD's, listen to music and communicate with my friends through text messaging only. I feel bad because Amy called me Sunday but I hadn't woken up yet and I didn't feel like hearing about how wonderful her life is and how happy she is.
I feel isolated and alone and I know I have a habit of pushing people away but I just can't do human interaction right now.
I'm sick and tired of all this fakeness and these facades people wear around me. At least I'm real and I may act like a bitch and act selfish all the time but I really can't help myself. I feel like shit; if I knew how to change I would in a heartbeat but I don't and I can't change. I hope this rough patch goes away soon. I don't want to continue to push Nick away it's just hard to enjoy life when there's nothing much to enjoy and everyone around you is so god damn happy and chipper.

Life is made of death and crap.

Today sucked. My sister Danielle got caught shoplifting with her friend Ashley. Well my sister didn't have any merchandise on her but admitted her friend was shoplifting for her too. Ashley's mother kicked Danielle out of their house and now Danielle has to move back in with our psychotic parents. I don't blame her for telling our mother that if she has to live with Dad again she'll kill herself.
Our Dad is crazy, controlling and nosy. I hated him and I still hate him. No wonder I have so many problems with the opposite sex. I know when it comes down to it it's my fault and no one else's but still. It would have been nice to have a supportive father-figure versus a controlling, negative father-figure growing up.
Sometime it's nice to entertain the idea of not being born at all. That's how I feel sometimes. People just grow up to be these huge cesspools of sadness and hurt. It's sad really when you think about it. Am I one huge ball of hurt and crap? Is that why guys never stay because they sense it in me like a sickness and run the other way? I don't even know who the fuck I am anymore. I lost myself so long ago....

Etiwanda Hike with Halley

Halley picked me up and then we went to eat Sushi in Rancho and then we went to go hike up at Etiwanda street in Alta Loma I think. I thought I was going to hyperventilate but I had the inhaler Robert gave me a few weeks ago. Then

Reenacted yearbook pictures from Black Hole.

"Fuck you, dear."

Robert is really getting on my nerves. I swear he should be a woman. He gets all pissed off and stupid out of nowhere like a fucking girl. He came home from the market today in a bad mood. He told me that I need to start giving him money for groceries. I said I know and he got all mad and made a comment when he left about how I will be eating his food. Then he walked out and slammed the sliding door. So he says that I've lived here for two months and I have not given him money for groceries. Well let's take a look here for a moment. First off when I moved in here I lost my job after four days. And since then I've been broke. I got one check from unemployment last month that was only for 373 dollars which barely covered my rent, phone bill and gas and other things.
I barely got a check on Friday for 614 that is all going towards my car. If I could I would have given him money for food these last two months but I've been broke! DUH!!!
I'm not eating anymore of his food or anything. I don't care if I starve. He is so full of shit. Maybe if he stopped spending hundreds of dollars on weed then he could afford to pay the mortgage and his bills. But he won't because he's a pothead. Great so now he just came in my room and offered me a muffin and I declined. I told him to take the thirty bucks out of my envelope and he asked me if I was mad because of earlier and I said yeah, because he needs to go about talking to me about things in a different way. But he was mad I guess because I hadn't offered him any money since I got money this Friday afternoon. Money really is the best way to ruin friendships.

A Facebook IM chat with Panty Jacker.

"I'm not a vulgar bitch though. I may be vulgar but I'm not a bitch.

mmmmmhm

haha jk

It should be obvious to you, Veronica, but I like you a lot. I hope we get the chance to get to know one another better.

You like me lot huh? Do you want me to bear your child or something, lol. Just kidding.

haha,well it would probably be a good looking child, judging from us just saying, I don't want to bring any ugly people into the world. there's way too many already. gosh I'm so good at being awkward, haha

No you're not awkward. I mean are you saying you're a shy person?

I'm shy yes. I'm also like, socially retarded. I say honest things when lies are required like just now I should have said somehting like,"kids? psh no"

Ha, ha, ha! You weren't shy like three years ago when I first met you!

I was probably high then and now when I DO get high, it just makes it worse, I'm just weirdddd

I guess you just are.

But you're weird too. In a good way. I like the way you're weird. Truth time did you like In Rainbows?

Uhh, duhhhhhh!"

I'm sick with the flu. =(

The artwork of Ray Caesar

Tron legacy and the movie date from Hell!

Even when I sit here and think about this experience I can't help being repulsed instantly with the memory of such a disgusting human being. I went to go see a movie with Jordan. The first thing I noticed when I got into the car with (The Thing) is that he is fat. He breathes through his mouth. I abhor and detest people who cannot breathe through their nose like normal people. It's a disgusting habit. Then when we got out of the car to the movie theater. I noticed how huge and fat he is. He even had a fat man's voice. Ewwwwww.

He literally wobbled to the front of the movie theater and he bought us tickets to Tron in 3D. Then he wanted to sit in the very back of the movie theater. As if!

I can't believe that hippopotamus actually thought that he would get a free make out session with me!

When the movie first started he reached for my hand to hold it. Which I thought was cute and I didn't want to be rude so I let him grab my hand. Then he started massaging my two fingers. Then he wanted me lean on him and so I did. Which was very uncomfortable. =(

Then I became too uncomfortable and I sat back in my seat while he held my hand then he suddenly kissed me without warning he was trying to make out with me but I said, "stop". Then he sat back down in his seat. It was so revolting.

Then we kept watching the movie and towards the end he put a leg up on my lap. I don't know why I don't know if he was trying to be cute or what the fuck he was doing. So I let him and then he put his other leg up on my lap and I put my foot down and I pushed his legs off me and I told him, "you're too heavy get your legs off me." Then for some reason he tried to kiss me again and I smelled his breath which indicated that he hadn't brushed his teeth all day. I told him, "Stop!" And then he stopped and sat back in his seat. Then the movie ended a few minutes later. He didn't want to get up but I wanted to leave and I wanted to go home already. So I got up and he wanted to hold my hand again so I let him grab my hand out of pity. And we held hands down the stairs and all the way to the car. Then when we got to my house he walked me to my house and he tried to kiss me again and I said no. He asked me why not and I told him because I don't know him and I don't kiss people I don't know. This fat ass was a total, fucking creep!

What a creep.

"Nobody really understands the alienation of being a young, woman or the hopeless emptiness that comes along with my generation."

I think Aneesa's Brad has a crush on me he just messaged me saying that I should go on Facebook and BS with him. I think this may be a bit intrusive on his part, I don't understand why he would chance it. Either he's really nosy, lonely and bored or he has a crush on me. I hope it's the before and not the latter part.

EDD never called me for my phone interview that they scheduled me for. I don't know what the fuck is going on. I'm hoping good things and that they realize that they forgot to mail me a check along with a claim form. I got a call from Glenn at GDA to do a diagnostic on the Volvo. I hope that's not too bad either.

All I know is that everything currently is out of my hands and all I can do is hope for the best. Maybe I'll burn some "Good Luck" incense I bought from Kindred Spirits.

Tonight I'm supposed to go see Tron with Jordan when he gets out of class tonight at ten. I'm not sure about this guy. He texted me last night well here's the conversation...

"We can do something tomorrow when I get out of class.
Okay, when do you get out?
10 pm.
Wow. That's late for a class. So what are you going to plan for us to do?
Let's chill at your place. Or see a movie.
Let's see a movie down the street from my house. Everyone is home and there's not privacy. Have yous seen Tron yet?
No, is it good?
I heard it's good, we should go see it tomorrow! =)
Sounds good, Check the times. The later the better. =)
Okay, I will. ;o)
I like to cuddle up though, just a warning. =)
Okay, lol.
And I can get touchy, feely at times, lol. ;o)
Ummm, okay. Lol!
Lol, but don't worry, I've got the softest touch you'll ever feel from a guy. ;o)
That's if it gets that far...
You won't be disappointed. ;o)
We'll see about that."

"Nothing's gonna stop me from floating."

Today was boring but at least I got high. Well, Robert got me high. I got my car towed to GDA Enterprises today. Roberta got home and she called Triple AAA and they towed and dropped off the keys for me.
Nick called me today while Robert was at work and he asked me about Tyler and what happened Sunday morning. I told him the whole sleazy story; then he told me about Ashland and how it was going over there in Oregon.
Then when were getting off the phone he said, "Bye, I love you." It was sweet, that's the first and only time I'll probably hear that from a man that actually means it in my lifetime. Lol. Can I please get my money now from EDD, I'm broke and I need it!!!

It's cool we can still be friends.

Nick left this afternoon and Robert left tonight to his uncle's in Moreno Valley for the night so he could get ready for the Yard Sale on Sunday. I was sad but happy to see Nick go and anyways I plan on keeping busy while he's gone. I got ready and started to drive to Halley's house so we could go out but my car died on Paige Street so I called Halley and told her what happened. I tried calling friends that live nearby to come help me but no one could. So Halley said she'd bring jumper cables to try and jump my car. With in five minutes a friendly neighbor came to my aid and helped me with my car. He tried jumping it and it kept turning on but then it'd just die. He said the battery seems fine and that it might need a new alternator.

A cop came and helped me push my car to the Sheraton hotel. Then Halley came and picked me up and we went to go hang out with Kym. Jordan texted me and I tried to get him to go to the party with me and Halley but he didn't want to go.

The office party was kinda fun. I ate snacks and I drank a mixed drink Kym made me and I played beer pong with one of the older people there. For a fifty year old's birthday party it was pretty fun.

I texted Kevin and I texted Justin but Kevin wasn't in town and Justin never texted me back. And Jordan wanted to come over my house and not meet me at the club and I said yes, even though I never had any of intention of letting him come over.

Me and Halley came back to her house and she changed and I noticed Tyler was not home. We went to Fusions in Ontario to go have drinks and dance. We got on the guest list so we wouldn't have to pay a cover charge. The club was okay there was no one attractive at all just mediocre looking guys. I got us quite a few free drinks but the music there at the place sucked. We got really drunk and stayed until it closed and they kicked us out. Halley drove us home and kept honking at people, I'm surprised we didn't get pulled over by the cops and that she didn't get a DUI.

We came home yelling and falling and being loud and obnoxious. After a short while Halley's mom came in the room with us and left realizing we were drunk and there was nothing she could really do. She asked me to take care of her. So I said I would then Tyler texted me.

"Shhh!
Fuck you!
Come here then!
No. You're not all that and a bag of chips. Sorry! You made me come once out of three. ;)
Your shit was beat."

I don't really remember how this happened but it did. Apparently, I got really mad after reading the last text and went into the den and went into Tyler's little room, to his bed and I sat on top of him pretending to be nice and then I slapped him and he said not to slap him or else something or other and I said he couldn't do anything about it and I slapped him again and walked away.

Then he texted me this: "I didn't want to make you come I got mine and how dare you come and slap me. Oh and you suck at dancing.
Yeah, sure. You deserved it you fucking bastard. You lead me on. There's no excuse.
Never meant to lead you on.
It's cool, I never had the intention of dating you. I just got out of a two year relationship with my ex."

I know that's partially a lie. I was on again off again with Matt but I really loved him and all and he broke my heart into pieces. So anyway my Vagina had me go to Tyler's bed again and he thought I was going to slap him again but I said I was sorry that I was drunk and I didn't mean it because he tried to kick me out of his bed. Then we started talking and then he told me I should go take care of Halley because she was throwing up. So I helped her puke and then finally I got her into her bed.

Then I changed into some clothes that I could go to sleep in and I brushed my teeth and I went outside and had a smoke. Then I went back into his room and he asked me why I was sleeping in his bed and I said because Halley has a twin bed and we don't fit. At first he didn't want me in his bed considering I had slapped him a few times and his dogs were in the bed with us but then he started snuggling up with me and we started making out and I pulled his hair and asked him if he likes it rough and likes to give it to girls rough. He said, yes sometimes. So I kept pulling his hair and he got mad and eventually we started wrestling and I bit him and fought back. (Oh what hormones reduce us too; especially when there's sexual tension present between two people!)

So anyways we started making out and he asked me to go down on him and I did for a little while until I tasted something sour and weird tasting. It must of been pre-come because he was still hard and we had sex and it sucked as usual. No surprises there!

I got mad and I told him to get off me and I ripped the condom off him and it snapped and broke off him. It sounded like it hurt but that's what he gets. Then he got mad at me and tried to kick me out of his bed and we started arguing and was asking me why I don't have a job and blah, blah. I told him how I've been working since I was 18 and I deserve a break. How I lived on my own for almost two years and what has he done besides live at home and go to school. He claimed he moved out when he was 18 for two years too and blah, blah. But one question did stick with me...Why don't I got back to school? At least he told me he thinks I'm very beautiful, I have a nice smile and body or something like that and he told me I'm a seductionist. I guess I might be one, it comes naturally for me.
After not getting satisfied and getting verbally attacked I eventually fell to sleep. I woke up after eleven because Tyler woke me up and then he left so I went into Halley's room and brushed my teeth and drank some aloe juice with pulp which was really good by the way.

Halley got ready and we went with her parents to downtown Claremont to have sushi and coffee. I had to lie for her and I told her parents I drove us home that she didn't because they would get very upset if they new.

Lunch with her parents was a little weird especially since Tyler divulged that his father thinks I have nice tits. Gross....They finally took me home after three o'clock. I do remember one bit of conversation that is memorable and funny. Halley's father said that the definition of an insanity is to repeat the same actions over and over expecting a different outcome each and every time.
Am I insane? Lol.

Justin Cioni is a tampon.

Thursday started out tired and then turned gruesome all of a sudden. Nick needed me to take him to CVS for his pain pills and to take him shopping in the pretense that he would make it worth my while. 
He wanted me to take him to CVS so he get his pills but I had just woke up at 2:30 I think in the afternoon and I was still tired so I told him to wait until I was ready to go so we can just go to Rhino Records right after. He got prescribed Norco so he wants them like a diabetic needs insulin.
We went and after, while I was at Rhino looking around, my hands started shaking. My feet, palms and armpits started sweating and I started feeling paranoid and it wasn't until Nick pointed out later that I was more than likely having an anxiety attack. I thought maybe it was a really, bad comedown from snorting Aderral for three days in a row and mixing it with weed.
Anyway I had to go back home after Rhino Records but we planned to go to Rock It at the Sky Lounge in downtown Pomona.
I took half a Xanie bar and then I took some vitamins an herbs to stop my stomach problems. Nick really knows his vitamins and stuff.

Then I got ready and we hitched a ride with Robert's sister Aneesa. We got in for free before ten and he bought me a beer and we smoked and took pictures. Then when I was feeling the xanax and the beer I wanted to go inside the big room and dance to the 80's music. It was fun and we even got Robert to come meet us there. I got hit on by a bouncer near the bathrooms he was alright looking but he asked me for my number and said he wants to take me out on a date. So I gave it to him. I need to learn how to date... More properly that is.

We left at midnight because Robert is lame and wanted to go home after only being there an hour I think he has anxiety or something. Or he just plain sucks and is a homebody.

Jusin Cioni started texting me when we left so I told him to come pick me up and fuck me. He asked me if I had money for gas or if I had weed. I said weed and he came and picked me up. He's shy. I had him give me a back massage and then he was just laying there next to me going to sleep. I was thinking to myself are we going to just fall asleep or we going to do this?!
I asked him if he was shy and he denied it so I just got on top of him and made out with him and then he took off his clothes finally. I was down to just my undies and he put a condom on and we had sex I almost came but I needed a few more minutes but it was too late he suddently just came. I heard him moaning in my ear. He was loud and he told me I was being too loud myself. I moaned once and that's it. He took me home in the morning and we hugged good bye. And that was it...

Rip it up and start again.

I still have E for sale Ryan Barge never texted me back that bastard but at least I was able to make my $50 payment on my DUI this month. I don't know what to do today. Play Rockband?

I talked to Brad, Aneesa's fiancee through Facebook IM it was funny, we started talking about my current plight with the opposite sex and he said I should go for an older man.

Maybe I should, everyone my age appears to be a bunch of douche bags not to be taken seriously. But I think I just want to focus on me right now and stop looking for "my one and only". It's not going to happen anytime soon so I need to stop trying to force it and not look and let this person come to me...

"I don't care about anyone and the feeling is obviously quite mutal."

I got a call from Andrew Bremer asking if I could help his friend out with some weed. I said sure, even though I didn't really want to help because he was saying if I could drive out to Buena Park and deliver weed to his friend Anthony. Then Andrew asked me how what I was doing Thursday and I said nothing that Nick was planning on leaving that night and he asked me if I was going to have the house to myself and I said no, that Robert would be there but he said he'll probably stop by after work. I became even more irritated after this conversation.

It seems like everyone always wants something from me (I must sound like a broken record but it's true) and I don't know if I have any more left to give. I'm exhausted.

And to top it off I'm broke and I need a job and blah, blah.

January 4, 2010

Didn't do much today I planned on selling my last pill to Ryan Barge so I called him and he said sometime around five o'clock I could come drop it off and get my ten bucks for it. I called EDD so hopefully I receive some check or form within the next few days. I need to pay my car insurance in exactly 12 days!!! I was really annoyed still so I snorted some Aderrall and sold my three lines of coke or so for ten bucks to Nick I planned on snorting it myself but he snatched that shit up it from me and I really need the money anyways.

Took Nick to Montclair mall again this week so I could return my dress thingy back to H&M so I could get my twenty bucks back and he could return a x-mas gift and exchange it for something else. I got some slippers out of it but not my twenty bucks back. Because my dress went on sale for half off. That means if I had returned it I would of only been able to get back ten bucks and some change. Which is absolute bullshit!

Later I went to Evan's house to deliver a twenty sack and to hang out with him as well. We've both been having a shitty time lately. I guess it's a Gemini thing or life just sucks for us currently.

"The oddness of life once again, distracted her."

I guess, I do only have fun if I'm being entertained or if someone is paying attention to me. Sometimes I really hate myself. I wish I could be available emotionally for certain people, particularly my loved one's and the opposite sex. I do feel, feelings by the way. Mostly lust, anger, resentment, geniality brought on because of either fornication or drugs, and last but not least satisfaction and that's about it.

If I could snap my fingers and be happy without needing a man for sex or a friend to pay attention to me and to help keep away my loneliness then I would; but that's never going to happen.

It's better to be alone than in a relationship based on orgasms.

Maybe it is all me, Nick told me the reason why guys don't want to date me is because I'm too beautiful, real, and blunt for them to handle. He says guys want girls they can control and who can boost their ego. I don't know if this even applies to me because he's gay, like he would have any insight on the subject anyways.

I guess, I am a little sad today. Nick called and asked me if I was okay because he said I sounded sad or put off, he then asked me if I could get Greg some E pills and I said yes but it would cost Greg $95.00 for eight pills and the trouble of getting them. He said okay and that Greg needs them by Thursday.

I've finally figured it out, what my problem is this week. I'm upset that I've been rejected by a boy, a twenty-three year old boy who is my friend's little brother. I'm not good enough to date him, but I'm good enough for him to fuck but not anything else substantial because I'm too free and wild for him to comprehend or spend time with. It sucks to be rejected, everyone knows this.

Never a dull moment...

I stayed in my room yesterday, practically the whole day and hung out on our side of the house. I felt like crap; I did a bunch of Coke, Aderrall, smoked weed, hash and drank lots of champagne and alcohol. What for? I don't even know why. It's funny really. It's one big joke to me. I feel like I'm in ethical limbo between conformity and nonconformity.I couldn't invite Skosh over to the house yesterday because Robert thinks he's guilty of raping that girl three or four years ago. I know it sounds low for me to be speaking to a person that has gone to prison. Let alone trying to associate with him. But I don't think he did it and even if he did he has never tried to rape me. I don't think he's evil or sense anything cruel or hidden in him. But then again I'm not good with reading people. I always seem to see only the good in people not the bad, until it's too late.
I did not arrive to his house until about seven o'clock and I parked in front of his house on the street and before I could even step out of my car he was there at my window just like he used to, eager to see me like in the olden days.  He hugged me and we walked into his house and I met his parents I felt weird like they were judging me because I feel they believe their (adopted) son is guilty of the crime and any respectable person would not associate with him since he's a criminal. But then again I could of just been cracked out and paranoid from all the drugs I've been doing in a day.

We went to hang out in his room and we listened to music while we talked and he tried to figure out how to play a movie for us to watch. We kissed, embraced and fucked within an hour. It was very intense. He has this intensity about him and makes you believe that you are beautiful when he says it. He looks at me like I'm this rare and ravishing creature that he has the pleasure of capturing for a short while. He looked really good, very healthy and he works out now and has muscles he's still 5'7". He went down on me forever and he made me come like four times and overall the experience was very satisfying.

I left his house at 9:20 to meet Halley at her house and her mom took us to Laemelle's in Claremont to see Black Swan. I loved the movie and the aspect of the story. It was one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. When we came back to their house I thought Tyler would finally be home by then but he was not. It was after midnight, I don't know why I cared where he even was. Sigh.

"Should of taken acid with you."

The New Year's party was utterly boring and useless. Jackie and Nick Post came over and this chick named Katie that is a friend of Robert's. Their was no one to pay attention to me so I was quite bored. If you count Nicholas Post checking me out as appealing then you should just kill yourself. The guy is not attractive at all I don't know why David Pena is so in love with him. I know he has a big, cock but he just isn't very attractive.
Everyone rolled on Ecstasy that I went and bought from Lon, except for me and Katie.            
I bought 14 pills for Robert and my dealer Lon gave me 2 free. But I only got to keep 1 because Nick came to me during the party for first half of one and then he took the other half. He's supposed to give me as many Xanie bars I want in exchange for it.  But we'll see if he keeps his word. I got a message from somone I hadn't talked to in like five months. I guess that's what my horoscope meant as "a small surprise". Skosh Michael Symon...



"DUDE I AM in UPLAND untill SUNDAY NIGHT!!! WE SHOULD CHILLLL PLEASE (p.s. I didn't text you back because my douche bag PO violated me for smokin weeeeeed. Give me your number, I don't have my phone. Call me at 909 946 2042.
It's 9092404703.
Tiiight. What are you doing Saturday? Or... today?
I might go out later tonight with my girlfriend. But I'm not sure. Where are you in Upland? At your parent's house?
Yeah 23rd and Mountain right by you! I was thinking we could chill in the day maybe? I dunno. I still haven't gone to bed, so I dunno what time frame I'm looking at.
Actually, I'm probably not gonna go out tonight I still haven't gone to sleep yet. If we hang out where should we go? I don't live in Upland anymore I live in Pomona now, by the way.
Oh, bummer for me, but I don't care where we go what we do, I just want to jump on the chance to see you before continuing my exile in San diego.
I want to see you too. Do you have any money? Maybe we should get a motel and spend the night there together.
I have some money but not a significant amount., and I kinda want to capitalize on being "home" you know? Sleep in a real bed and all, motels are yucky. Buuut, I wonder if maybe we could get dinner together? See where things go? I kinda also wanted to see that movie TRON, I've kinda been looking forward to it for a year. Ha, ha. I'm sure you and I could find something to do.
Yeah, we can go to dinner or see a movie, it's just that I'm broke right now. Either way, I'm sure we can figure something out.
Do you drive yet?? Because I do not. If money is scarce we can find something cheap or free to occupy ourselves with I'm sure.
Yes, I can drive now. I wonder if my roommate would be cool with you coming over our house. Did you know Robert St. John at all? He's my landlord/friend/roommate.
OMG!!!!!! I LOVE ROBERT ST JOHN!!!!!! I've missssed him so much!!!! How can you not remember that he is how we met?
Was he? I can't really remember, that was like a while ago. Well, I'll ask him if you can come over and maybe we can watch a movie or hang out at the house or something. :)
Cooool beans. I'm thinking about going to try to sleep soon. Do you want me to call you when I wake or something?
I'll call you later today. Sweet dreams, Skosh. ;) "