Vegas one night stand.

Initially I assumed my day and half trip to Vegas was going to be boring and a waste of time since I was going with Halley but I was mistaken.  Saturday morning we left at like almost seven in the morning and we drove to our hotel at Circus, Circus but we got there too early so Halley and I went to the pool downstairs which was pretty ghetto but it had cheap drinks. I actually wore my black bikini that is a tad revealing but I took a Xanax and before it kicked in I just talked myself out of being self-conscious and toughed it out.
Then we checked in at 2:00 and I took a shower and got ready and we went with Halley's friend Jake to a Hotel called M that had a really nice pool and we laid out and went swimming and I drank one drink. While we were walking around talking to people in the pool two guys came up to Halley and I  and started flirting with us. The dark haired semi-cute one bought me and Halley a free shot but she didn't want it because the cute guy's friend was hitting on her and she didn't like him or his flirting so I drank a shot and half with the guy and then when I announced to him I had to use the restroom he tried to take me to some side door on the side of some building in the back but it was locked (thank jebus!) and I left to go to the bathroom and when I came back to the pool area the two guys were talking to two other chicks and I called him out on it and grabbed my sunglasses back and he grabbed me and picked me up but I told him to put me down and leave me alone.

Shoplifter.

To be a successful shoplifter one has to plan ahead what they are going to steal.
I've come to the conclusion that it's best to shoplift (intimates) because it is less suspicious looking and let's just face it; who the hell steals underwear?

(No one I know and the only person I knew that did that was some girl I used to know in seventh grade.)

My shoplifting technique is called the (bra-switch) and this entails bringing along with me to the store a big purse loaded with old and unwanted bras to switch out with brand new ones.

I only bring a few at a time and I make sure to go to the bra section and grab quite a few bras in my size to actually try on because it looks less suspicious than bringing in just one single bra try on and switch out. Then when I find one I like I put an old bra back on the hanger and I take the new one and it put back on over my existing bra I'm wearing, so if I ever get caught I won't have any evidence in my purse.

(I'm not positive but I don't think that when you got caught shoplifting undercover loss prevention people can make you strip down to check if you have any concealed merchandise. But you never know nowadays I could be wrong.)

Finally, when I'm finished and ready to walk out of the dressing room door I hang on to my old bras and walk around with them pretending that I might potentially buy them and then I proceed to look for more bras and clothes to try on and I keep bra-switching until I'm done.

When I'm done shopping I usually find a piece of clothing I actually want to purchase and I buy it and walk out the door with a new item of clothing as well as new several bras.

The End.

I don't think it's bad to steal from major companies that make millions of dollars every year. They make enough money off the population to reimburse themselves for stolen merchandise.

Ryan Campbell...

I am usually not attracted to asian looking guys.....but Ryan has long hair, wears beanies, has piercings, tattoos and he's mixed with German or some kind of european blood. And let me just say that he is very good looking in this picture. Sigh...

Why can't I have this?

PRINCE CHARMING WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!  >=(

To grow pubic hair or not to grow pubic hair, that is the question.

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This is a picture of Madonna back in 1979 when they still believed in having bushes. I think she looks amazingly good even if her pubic hair needs to be groomed.
Why do people (mostly men) hate women's pubic hair? If you don't like it getting in your teeth then maybe you should stop eating pussy!
As long as a woman smells good and tastes good then why is pubic hair such a bad thing for men?

"In my experience, the prettier the girl is, the more nuts she is."

This morning Ryan Campbell and I started instant messaging each other and he started calling me "hey love" so I asked Kenny if that means he likes me and he said yeah. Ryan is not very attractive but he likes cameras and he's a libra so we should get along fine. I hope he has a big c*** and he f**** me. Lol. I hope to God nobody I know ever see's this and figure out my identity on this blog because if they do I will be mortified and a lot of people's feelings might get hurt.
I don't even want to think about it....

Friday night review.

Friday was pretty fun and the movie was pretty cool. Why can't I meet someone who is like the boy in that film? Sometimes I feel like there is no one out here that is like me. Like I'm an outcast and I don't belong...
Saturday night Justin and I went out to Moon Block Party in downtown Pomona; there were so many hot guys there! I ran into Nick Villalobos and it was awkward and weird and I talked to Shaun Perry and told him about Nick moving away and then I noticed Justin and his brother and his brother's friends walking away. So I excused myself and ran off to go find them.
Then we finally left the block party to go the Well a club in Los Angeles. The club sucked.
There was nothing but Koreans there and the one cute guy I saw but he looked like he was gay and he was short. =(
Adam, Justin's brother was supposed to get bottle service and a free bottle of booze there that is why we were going in the first place and that didn't happen. We  even had to pay to get in the door too. Then when we got home that night I had to sleep on a bed with Justin and Adam. It was lame and smelly. Justin had bad breath because he didn't brush his teeth. I didn't get back into town until like almost four in the afternoon! Boo!!!!

Submarine movie and dinner with Frank...

Today I'm going Pasadena to have lunch with Frank and to go see this new movie named Submarine with him as well.  I deleted Frank from my Facebook and my phonebook on my phone a month ago and then he texted me and I didn't know who he was of course. Then he realized I deleted him and he asked me what the deal was and I told him and then he made this huge plea to be friends again, yadda, yadda, yadda. So we'll see how tonight goes...honestly I only want to be friends with him so I can use his drum set. So at least I'm not using him for sex or vice versa; I do know that he sees me in a non-platonic way and I see him in a strictly platonic way. So out of this movie date or whatever you wanna call it, I get to possibly get free dinner and a movie out of it...

Reacurring pregnancy dream.

For some reason over the last six months I've had several dreams of being pregnant which is odd to me...
This morning I had a dream that I was living with my immediate family (I've been on my own since I was 19) and apparently I had given birth (in my other dreams I've only known I was pregnant or I had baby bump indicating my pregnancy) and I was breast feeding my child in front of my parents. In another part of my dream my breasts actually hurt from producing too much milk and at one point milk squirted out of one of my nipples. I couldn't discern if my child was a girl or a boy but I did feel love and displayed motherly instincts towards my child. 

The puzzling thing about these dreams is that the mere thought of becoming pregnant on accident or having children at my age (I'm only 24) scares me! I am certain I don't want children at this point in my life and I have even went as far as getting an IUD inserted recently to ensure I don't get pregnant until I'm financially stable and married. 

The only thing I can think of that might influence my subsconcious to dream of being pregnant is that four of my friends are married and have young children and three out of the four are currently pregnant with another child. Other than that I can't figure out what this all means, if anyone has any ideas or suggestions please feel free to share with me. Thanks. =)

We got love and hate it's the only way.

I'm a little sad. Nick left rehab and moved away to Oregon to get away from Robert and to help himself get better. I don't know how a person addicted to pain killers is supposed to get better by taking Methadone. I feel abandoned but at the same time if the roles were reversed I'd do the same thing.

I want to move to a new town so I can leave all of this behind...

So I haven't written in this for a very long time. I have been feeling slightly disgusted with myself for quite awhile. I didn't/don't like the person I am/have become...I'm trying to change and prove myself wrong. I don't want to be so egocentric I just want to get by and not hurt anyone or be hurt by anyone. I just want to live in peace.
I miss Nick. I miss having my best friend. I miss life when it was less complicated. I've quit doing drugs, I just smoke cigarettes and smoke pot. I don't buy it and eventually I will detox my body of all drugs and meat....eventually. But not quite yet.  =)