It is currently 6:25 am in the morning and I still have not fallen asleep, so I shall write about this past week.
Currently, I am still lost, weird and going for broke and now that we have established this I'd like to share that...I can't produce a proper reason for not being able to stop my brain from thinking.
Yesterday, Greg came over and he seemed lonely and sad? It wasn't until after he left that I realized he had been crying earlier outside while he was with Nick talking. I guess the "Molly" depleted his seratonin. His sadness is interesting to me because I on the other hand feel nothing.
I feel neither sad, glad, mad or horny. Nothing. I feel absolutely nothing. I wish I could feel something but I currently am numb.
Greg and Nick said they had such an amazing time doing the X this weekend but I did not have an awesome time. It was only satisfactory because I was able to leave the house for a few days this weekend. The drugs are not working, my best friend Nick is not working. My hook ups are not working. "Nothing" is working.
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